dear God

Dear God,

I don’t understand why you don’t talk to me

I feel abandoned by the man who said he would never leave

You were supposed to be my daddy

         But daddies don’t ignore their kids

I used to feel your warmth

         It was like being cuddled up in grandmas home made quilt

Instead of warmth

         I feel chilled

Instead of love

         I feel alone

We were so close

         Now distant

         From everyone

Laughter used to spring out of me from a fountain of joy.

What happened to that joy?

Is it just hidden in a box?

         Stored away in the back of my soul?

The only emotion I feel is

         Depression.

So will life return to me?

Or

Will I remain dead inside?

That was what i wrote in my journal over the summer. I was going through a depression. It took a lot but i go my answer to that question. God got me through it. Dont worry he will get you through it too!

Mount. Life

Life is one big mountain. We stumble, fall, bleed, and start climbing again. Some people focus on where to place their hand next. Some decide its too hard and jump off. As sad as it is they never see whats waiting for them. Different people have different strategies on how to climb. I like to think i wear a safety cord. So that if i fall ill get picked up. Its worked before. I try to focus on the top of my mountain where i know God is. Even though sometimes it feels like hes not there or doesn't care i know he is. you might not be ok at times but hes making sure that you will be in the future. So don't give up your climb.

religious or a relationship?

 Q: What does having a relationship with God really mean? 

   A: We have relationships with our family members and best friends don't we? We develop them by spending time with that person. You find out the other persons interests and knowledge is shared. God is no different. He wants you to spend time with him and get to know him. He wants to pass on his knowledge, love and understanding ways so you can share them as well. 

   I journal to God sometimes and when i do i adress him a my Daddy. After all he is our father which can mean creator, but he is also our daddy. A dad is someone who loves you unconditionally, cares about you, is there for you and gives you wisdom if you listen. 

   1 John 3:1 See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are! But the people who belong to this world don't recognize that we are God's children because they don't know him.

   So there you have it, we are his children and he is our daddy. Now just get the relationship going by loving him and knowing he loved you. Put your trust in him for in Hebrews 13:5 God said "I will never leave you nor forsake you."  So trust him with your feelings, thoughts and life. He wont let you down!